Poor

I was going to write about why faith and reason aren’t opposed.

I was going to write about why the majority of intellectuals are non-religious.
I was going to write about how to read the Bible in its own context.
I was going to write about the insights that psychology has to offer Christians.
I was going to write about why believers don’t have to fear evolution.

But none of those are the post I need to write. They would be too easy for me.
I enjoy intelligent debate.
I like the challenge of stating my case, and persuading the unconvinced, and refuting the opposition.
It is much easier for me to give my mind to God than to give my heart.
What we call the “moral high ground” is usually only the intellectual high ground.
It’s easier to theorize about Bible translation than it is to do what it says.
It’s easier to argue for the cause of Jesus, than to believe in him and love him with all my soul.

Loving people is hard.
Putting my wife before myself is hard.
Talking about sin is hard.
Resisting temptation is hard.

Being close to Jesus is hard.
Following Jesus, trying to be like him, is hard.
Letting him change me is hard.

And I don’t think I’m doing it very well.

Am I the kind of person who will see God?
I’m not pure in heart.
I don’t mourn.
I’m not persecuted.
I can’t remember a time when I showed true mercy.
I avoid conflict, rather than make peace.

I’m very good at pretending to have it all together.
Good at faking it.
Good at hypocrisy.
Good at all the things that Jesus damned.

If I am really honest with myself, I feel like I’m failing.
My only hope is that Jesus also promised the Kingdom to those who are poor in spirit.

Jesus, my head knows what grace is.
Please help my heart to know your grace.
 

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “Poor

  1. “These sermons of Jesus Christ are meant for your will and your conscience, not for your head. If you dispute these verses from the Sermon on the Mount with your head, you will dull the appeal to your heart.” – Oswald Chambers

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s