Warfare and love walk together hand in hand. An enemy of creation is an enemy of life. An enemy of life is an enemy of love. Love is patient, kind, slow to anger…and quick to struggle, quick to wrestle, quick to destroy. This is a mystery.
The word rest is nestled inside of wrestling
That makes sense to me
WrestLing…resting and wl. Waste Land
But struggling from a continual place of exhaustion…
No, strive for only rest. And then wrestle in rest
Feelings have an etymology just as words
Why does a horse live in a home called a stable?
Where did that come from…there’s probably a simple explanation – if you practice equestrian history
Why do you join your love in covenant and then honeymoon?
She asked me this, “I understand the honey in marriage, and I understand the moon…but what in the world is a honeymoon”?
The secret history of a deep and an ancient emotion!
Why do I get stronger on the exterior and realize greater fragility interiorly?
Realize not destabilize into…fragility
It was there, even when I felt it not to be
It has a history.
I’ve made promises to God I felt sure I could keep.
“I’ve said more than I wanted to say” – Jon Foreman
Samson stood between two great pillars. The brittle giant wedged himself in-between these duel in-toppleable demonic strongholds and “bowed with all his strength”.
One pillar of other gods
One pillar of false strength
One Push of prayer
One Push of “the battle belongs to the Lord”
Two pillars of fallen-angle-fallen
One pillar of Samsonite sand (“he who hears my words and doesn’t obey”) heaped in the middle
One Pillar of prayer standing
One Pillar of war erect, and still belonging
Who is the Antithesis-Delilah?
I know who it is for me
Surely our weaknesses meet each other in the most vulnerable ways
This makes us cry
First we are silent, and my skin crawls, and then tears, but together-tears
But isn’t that true of our strengths as well?
Where I’m weak, it certainly whispers to your fears
If God kisses and breathes life into
Then Lucifer sucks like a dementor in demented imitation, but his is dry where God’s is moist
“Oh Abraham, send me just a drop of water by Lazarus’”
Satan went out to tempt and try Jesus when he thought Jesus should have been at his weakest
The snake to whisper to God’s fears
Surely a mistaken strategy – and what a story of Victory and demise because of it!
The great Israelite king of history spoke early of his righteousness,
“The Lord dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he rewarded me. For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.”
And the broken Israelite king of history spoke late of Your righteousness,
“Because the love of the Lord is better than life, my lips will praise you.”
But in either case, he was right.
“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.”
This was true for him too
Two great pillars stand now
One Pillar of the Living God
One Pillar of “Hallelujah, the battle belongs to the Living God”
The battle lines are drawn
The victory is secure
Two giants to be slain
One giant of “by my own” (division)
One giant of “hopelessness” (the snake wHISSpering to your fears)
Supernatural strength to bow
“bowed with all his strength”
A slain giant decapitated on a field
Two pillars crushed to dust with a river of blood flowing down
God wRESTling. Still and still.
And I am resting with Y(y)ou too.
And “here is love”.